Sorry I've not been on here lately. I'm finding it a bit hard at the moment to get interested in anything. I seem to have sunk into a real bad bout of depression. I took myself off to the doctors for my diabetic review and the nurse made the mistake of asking me how I was coping with my diabetes emotionally................well...........30 minutes later and a whole box of tissues used up, she booked me in to see a therapist, and I have my second session this week. Basically I've let everything get on top of me, until I could see no way out, and then tried to carry on regardless. So I'm in the process at the moment of cutting everything out of my life that stresses me and just getting back to doing what I LIKE and enjoy and can physically cope with, given that my chronic fatigue makes life a struggle. My blood pressure is through the roof too, despite being on medication, so reducing stress and anxiety seems to be the order of the day for everything thats wrong with me.
I've given up chairmanship of the Estate Community Garden for a start. Well, I ended up as Chairman, Secretary, Treasurer, and the only person maintaining it day by day. It was exhausting to be honest, and its been like that for a year now. No one else wanted to know about working over there, but everyone would turn up for a free BBQ. Frustrating wasn't the word.
I've just asked to have a couple of small raised beds to plant myself next year with none of the stress of trying to do it all. Grow a few salads, some veggies and ENJOY it!
I've also somehow managed to get myself in a bit of debt, not excessive, but hard to clear on benefit. Comfort buying I guess! I sat down and worked out if I'm really, really careful I can be debt free in 16 months. That's catalogues and everything finished, so I can enter retirement free and clear. If anything breaks between now and then, we'll just have to manage without it. Of course if Jo finds another job before then we could be clear earlier, but I'm not holding my breath, it's weeks since she even had an interview.
I'm still hoping for a housing transfer to a quieter area, I've been on the list now for over 2 years, but I wonder how we could afford to move if we got offerred something. That's another worry, but living here is all part of the problem
Well, I've had a couple of good Fairs lately, I sold a few cards at a school fun day, but I charged next to nothing, so I doubt if I even covered the making costs. But it was nice to sell for a change.
Then the following week the local church had a table sale. I went to the last one they held but only sold a couple of cards, this time I knew what sort of stalls they have, so I took some bric a brac I wanted to shift, and sold some of that, plus some excess craft supplies. I think in future I shall do that again.
As long as I have a few pence coming in to cover the costs of my hobby I'm happy. I've missed making my cards, but that has also been part of the problem.......I seemed to have no time for me, so now 'me' has to come first.
Anyway, I hope anyone reading can bear with me a while longer, and as soon as I start making my Xmas Cards I'll post some on here. I'm also trying a few oddments of crafty style knitting as well, so perhaps I'll post pictures of them as well.
Hope everything is going well in your neck of the woods.............
About Blackbutterfly Cards
I started making cards for pleasure in 2007, and quickly found my home was becoming swamped by cards everywhere. I decided to put some of them up for sale on a webpage in an effort to recoup some of the costs of my hobby. I called the webpage Blackbutterfly Handcrafted Cards, and it can be found at http://www.blackbutterfly2007.co.uk/
I try to take my cards to a couple of table sales or craft fairs a year, but make my cards mainly for friends and family. I would love the website sales to take off, as I nowhere near cover the costs involved in this all absorbing hobby, but for me the main thing is the pleasure I have in making my cards.
Recently I have decided to expand my blog to cover my other interests too. It's a sort of substitute for going to work and chatting to people, as due to ill health I was unable to work, and since the beginning of 2014 I am officially a pensioner.
Although I'll still show my cards, I'll also be covering my other interests and how I attempt to make ends meet day by day.
In fact anything that crosses my mind will be on here, so be prepared for waffle and a wasted five minutes as you read. Make coffee and settle in, why don't you?